Well it's been a little over 3 weeks since I have written. I wanted to write while in Europe but never really got a chance to be online very long plus my time was limited. But it worked out better that way....I avoided anything I could to remind me of what I was going through. It helped a lot to not think about infertility and just enjoy my time with Hsien.
While on vacation, I had two friends tell me their wonderful news that they are both expecting. I will be honest, I took it very hard and there were days I sulked and obsessed about it but really I am happy for them. And for my dear friend who has been supportive of me since the beginning of all this who is pregnant, please don't take anything I write personally. I am truly happy for you and love that you will be a Mom. You are so lucky and I want to live vicariously through you until your due date ;) I don't want anyone to think I am mad or upset...I truly am happy although I do have my moments, but it's nothing personal. The good news is, I am going to be an Auntie again! My Sister in Law had a successful IUI and is pregnant again...due in June! Yeahhh! My niece Cora is going to be a big sister. I am happy for my SIL. She has been through a lot with infertility and she has been a wonderful support system for me since we are going through similar situations.
On that note, this is a very exciting and probably very stressful and emotional month for me. I have my first IUI probably right around Thanksgiving. I have an Injections class I am taking tomorrow at Kaiser where they will teach me how to give myself shot injections. Fun...so fun...not! So not looking forward to that part but if it helps me to achieve my dreams, so be it. Anxiously awaiting my period so I can get a definite date on when the IUI is and plan around that. I hope it dosen't fall on Thanksgiving...ugh! Good thoughts...gotta keep thinking good thoughts. Hopefully this one time procedure will do it for us! I really really hope!!
I keep having thoughts and dreams that we have triplets...OMG....can you even imagine that??!! Crazy thoughts I know. I don't know how the heck I would handle all of that Ha! Ha!
So I'm back...probably will be posting a lot since much of this stuff will come pretty fast. Trying not to think too much into the months ahead and hoping this IUI just magically makes it happen so we don't have to save more money and go broke while trying to be parents. In the meantime, I will relish in the idea of being an Auntie again and supporting my currently pregnant friends the best I can! =)
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