IUI #2

Look at what Santa brought me today? hehehe I thought it would be funny to leave it under the tree until Hsien gets home. It's our Christmas present this year ;)

Well after dreaded AF came, I knew I had a choice. I could either get upset and freak out or I could accept it and move on. I decided to accept it and move on. I don't have to like it or be nice but I will accept this and try again. I am not a quitter and I can move on.

Had an appt today with my NP Debbie. It was weird being back at her office again since the last time I was there it was my IUI with Hsien and we both felt so hopeful and happy. Was hoping I would not have to come back to that clinic not pregnant. I was in the room and Debbie walked in with a frown face on. I told her not to be sad for me because I would start crying. She promised then to smile and no tears. We did an ultrasound and found some follicles. She had a hard time seeing them today so I didn't get an exact count but there were a few there growing. She asked me to get dressed and then meet her in her office.

She decided that since my body only made one follicle last cycle, she wants to be more aggressive. We will do a continued higher dose of Menopur and also include Femara for 5 days. She will have me do this until Monday to see how my follicles grow. I have a blood test Monday morning and then an ultrasound Monday afternoon to see how things have progressed. Hopefully really great! When I was leaving, Debbie gave me a big hug and I am glad. I teared up a bit because she really does care. I know she wants us to get pregnant and doing everything she can possibly to get us there. We are going super aggressive this month and hoping that it really does work. I get weighed every time I go to my appt and I hate that. I try to close my eyes but they always tell me my weight. It's going up but I know its from the meds and retaining water and that's okay. I am not obsessing over it...it is what it is and as long as I can still fit into my pants, I am doing okay. I might have to buy some more stretch pants because the Menopur made me super dooper bloated last time that I couldn't button my jeans. It's weird seeing it so bloated. The only other side effect is that I am breaking out in acne all over my face. Everyday I have a new big pink zit...blah! My co-worker keeps mentioning it because I usually have nice skin. She told me it was because I am eating too much chocolate LOL! I keep telling her to keep thinking that ;)

I really want to feel motivated to work out more. I took dance last month but the hip hop was just too much for me. My abs were hurting for days after classes and I really need to stop with the ab workouts. Then my other class which is a Jazz class is just too emotionally hard to continue going to. I have a friend in there who is 5 months pregnant and my jealousy takes over me every time I am in class. I can't even focus on the choreography or music. It's like I see her belly and I want to cry. Sooooo I am not sure when I might go back to dance. Taking a break in December since we will be doing the IUI again and my niece is coming. I am thinking maybe January depending on how things go I might take a tap class instead with my friend Jenny who teaches. There is really no ab work and no pregnant ladies to compete with ;)

I am definitely feeling more positive now about this cycle. Still let down from the negative results of the last one though. I feel like we did everything right but my body wasn't ready. Hopefully this time around that all the hormone medication will get us pregnant....or I won't be surprised if I turn into a Unicorn by New Years! ;)