Reiki

I started reading "The Infertility Cure" and it has been great! Learning tons of information about Traditional Chinese Medicine going hand in hand with Western Medicine. I am still on the bandwagon that I want to do this as holistic as I possibly can.

So last night, I opened up again to people who don't know about my infertilty. I have been taking a Meditation class now for a couple of months with Paul and Kate. They live in Willow Glen and open up their home to people who want to meditate and also discuss self awareness. It has been such an invaluable resource to me right now. I don't think they fully understand how much they effected me until maybe now. Paul asked everyone last night about Mustard seeds and if we had any over the past two weeks. I was a bit nervous to share at first so I let another person go ahead of me. Finally....I released my feelings about what was going on with me and explaining how I had decided to be as natural about this as possible. I want to avoid pills, shots and hormones right now and with acupuncture, meditation and eating well. Kate and Paul were so loving about all of it and asked if Kate could do a Reiki session with me. I wasn't really sure what Reiki was but after doing some research it's healing with your hands which also promotes relaxation. I am really looking forward to my first session with her tonight at 6:30pm. I feel like i need to do something nice for her and for Paul. I am just not sure what yet. Do I pay them? I have no idea....I guess I could offer. I am just not sure but I am looking forward to my session with Kate tonight. I also have an acupuncture appt at 5pm. I have lots of healing to look forward to tonight!

A friend of mine told me today that her 20 year old niece is pregnant. This niece has been trying to get pregnant for some time and is currently engaged. I guess she feels she has to do it now and dosen't want to get too "old". This news broke my heart....why can't that be me!? She is too young to be having babies but I need to stop being judgemental and realize that it isn't my life and I need to accept that. Hopefully my time will come and it will be wonderful and special.

I have my first RE appt tomorrow at 2:30pm. Looking forward to it...not sure what to expect really. Kinda nervous though. Hsien won't be with me and I wish he would be there with me. After the appt, I am heading out to Sonora with M.E. so that is something to look forward to and her and I can talk in the car on the way there about what has been happening.

I am thinking about changing the name of my Blog....thinking maybe it's a bit negative. I will have to think up a better Blog name that is a bit more positive. I need positive energy right now!