Another IUI this summer?

Well it looks like possibly we will be going down the RE route again this summer. Not getting my hopes up because it all depends on an inheritance from my Grandmother. I probably should not even be putting all of my eggs into one basket because I really have no idea how much we will be getting but hoping to know soon and be able to move forward with treatments. I took it upon myself to get my Day 3 FSH blood test done. I was actually sort of pleasantly surprised! In Sept 2010, it was 15 something...today it was 16.7. Not great that it went up but I was really expecting in the 20s or higher. Of course my OB e-mails me back about my results and says "Due to your high FSH level, please contact the REI department". No shit? Really? LOL! Really sucks to be 37 and know that your body is in pre-menopause. So if we do get an inheritance, I will be using that money towards an IUI or hopefully more then one if it's needed. I know that is what Grandma would want for us and if all works out I would like to incorporate her name Kay into my child's name....Grandma are you up there listening??!! I don't want to get too excited because we might not even be getting anything as far as an inheritance. In that case, we would not be able to move on until I at least have a job and we can pay for it. My husband is okay with this. He told me last night that he was perfectly content with just Brandon but to me I feel like I need to give Brandon a sibling...I don't know. It's just my crazy mind playing games with me again. I also bought some ovulation sticks and we will be tracking my ovulation steadily until we start fertility treatments. Gah! I hate all of this....why can't I be like ALL of my friends who get knocked up so quickly. Hardly seems fair and I hate that I feel so bitter and angry about it and I hate that I take it out on them indirectly. They complain about pregnancy symptoms and diabetes test....they really have NO IDEA what a complaint is...I'll give you a complaint! Grrr! See here I go again with my jealous rage...I hate this!!! I hate when people don't understand and make stupid comments. Excited to be doing the March of Dimes March for Babies walk in honor of my son and his sisters in Heaven. I have raised over $2000 and really proud of myself for pursuing such a great cause and fundraising like I have. Hopefully I can do it next year as well! http://www.marchforbabies.org/personal_page.asp?pp=4107762&ct=4&w=5242062&u=MoniKat314 I'll keep you updated on our journey this summer....really really hoping that this will all work out for us!!